Oeople call me Ray.

April 10, 2025

It's still happening, but it doesn't make me anxious anymore. Is that a bad thing?

I was in a large elevator located what I think was both a dormitory and an amusement park, it was a large circular elevator with a soft foam-like floor and three "rings" of segmented glass panes that would spin as the elevator rose, in the corner was a closet with an empty hanger. I'm not sure how far up the elevator was supposed to go, but I quickly realized that it was going higher and faster than it was supposed to. The glass was spinning incredibly fast, enough to hurt if you touched it, though it wouldn't cut, I clung onto the hanger in the closet for safety. Eventually the elevator floor became crooked and people were getting tossed all over the place, it was like a big blender but nobody was getting hurt. The elevator reached the top at the 12th floor, but it was incredibly close to the ceiling and there wasn't much space despite the crooked floor. I was still disoriented so i didn't notice when most of the people had left the elevator, so I had no idea where to leave safely. There was one other person with me and I didn't have my phone with me, there were a few small, cramped holes in the wall but I had no idea where they would lead. I was incredibly nervous but I worked up the courage to crawl through a hole on the upper right, which was actually pretty short. It led to a place that was overwhelmingly green, and my older sister was there right by a staircase that only went up. I explained my situation and went up the stairs to look for my dorm and meet up with someone I believe I had a romance with. I told her what I just went through and that I'd meet with her again after I got settled, and agreed to meet her in 15 minutes. I made my way down to the 11th floor where my dorm was supposed to be until I realized I didn't have a dorm anymore because I wasn't even enrolled anymore. This has actually happened in a lot of my dreams. I began rushing down the entire building to get back to my family's hotel room, each floor looked like it was in a completely different biome, and you could just jump down entire floors, but the other floors weren't visible from each floor so they looked isolated. This was also in another dream I had except it was a casino. I made my way back to the hotel room and got ready to meet her even though I was terribly late. I think it ended up going well however I tried stealing something from a futuristic pokemon themed area that looked like a steel laboratory, and I died in a completely different elevator, entering a much briefer death loop in which my loved ones died and I was betrayed.

March 22, 2025

I was on a plane with my family, heading to some resort. I don't know how but we ended up in a pink void with a floating casino in front of us, to reach it we had to glide there. I saw C there, I ate a mouthful of sprinkles from a nearby plate and promptly spit them out.

I was at C's house during a party, it was huge and mazelike, totally non-euclidean, and yet I was familiar with it because I had seen it in a dream before. I tried to make my way over to C's room but it was too crowded and I felt too sluggish, so I couldn't find it.

March 17, 2025

This feeling constantly gnaws at my mind, haunting my mind and my dreams year after year. There's nothing to distract me from it this time. It's a feeling that will follow me to my grave. It's a tumor to my heart and mind, misguided and ever-growing. I need closure that I will never receive.

As a child, I had a strange reoccurring dream. I was in my house, but everything was blank and white. I walked up up to a window and looked outside to see an equally blank empty street. A giant tree with a gaping mouth walked by and locked eyes with me, he opened his mouth and let out an operatic cry and he began to inhale me. I've only ever told C.

I was in a weird version of Disneyland with C, going through a line themed after baseball, concessions were being handed to people at certain points, but only to those who ordered ahead. The line lead into a large outdoor theater area at night, it was incredibly undeveloped. They had short barbed wire fences, the ground was just plain dry dirt, and the seats were small wooden benches, with the movie screen being perched really high up on a dark structure I couldn't make out. The weirdest part was that there were large, wild animals spread throughout the whole area. As soon as I noticed I flinched heavily, which agitated a nearby panther and made it freak out, causing a huge chain reaction. The resulting frenzy killed C and many others in the crowd. My spirit was ejected from my body and I returned to the moment earlier when I entered the theater. I try many different routes of action but all lead to disaster. Eventually C manages to figure out that this keeps happening because of a pocket dimension they have, and begins tracking the amount of times certain people have died. For some reason I couldn't speak or interact with C at this point, but this was later resolved when we reconnected as spirits. We go back to that first moment one last time and unleash a massive stampede of wild animals upon the crowd. Good for us?

I was admiring the outside of a large palace with ivory pillars and brick walls surrounded by a moat. The entire area was set to be demolished soon for some reason. My family and I wandered around before eventually entering the area, where I suddenly knew that this place was being used to film something related to Pokemon. I wanted to get an autograph because it was a really big moment but I didn't have anything on me except my Steam Deck.

I witnessed a bizarre story of a mother who sold videos of her breastfeeding her son to strangers on the internet. She eventually hooked up with one of them who is a really schlubby alcoholic. Her son is in the living room watching a movie on TV with the schlubby guy, it's about some explorer on a mysterious island who gets captured by natives. There's a scene where some weird magic ritual turns him into a woman, the boy watching this movie has something awaken within him. Timeskip to the future where that kid transitioned into a female and has force field superpowers alongside a latex fetish and mommy issues. Somehow this leads to the creation of a weird blob monster named "Prun", who is contained in an interdimensional space station. There's a dramatic reveal that the water source on the station comes from the fangs of a giant comatose snake who is also Prun. I have no idea where this came from.